Monday, January 24

Hey everyone,

sometimes we have little people on the net that annoy us, well i have one and shes plain annoying. The whole fact that she has NO idea wtf she is going on about, causes me much amusement and is the reason i dont just block her and forget about her. I would rather teach the little bitch a lession and show her that there is many things to fear in life, and i should be one of them. Not for my power or "Skillz" but the idea that i, belive in karma, and the power of 3, and that eventually anything she does will come back to her, simple as can be.

So let it be known from this day, that now is truely annoying, please feel free to email her, spam her, annoy her in any way possible, she loves p0rn spam and will happily have you sign her up for any type of mailing list ever.



Sometimes it seems, people do read my site, they have seen my message and came running in their millions, this new attack involves 14year olds, who amazingly with their limited knowledge of the world this one goes by the email of : .

It seems its really pissed them off, so now they have started telling people that im doing something on cam, or something like this as im having people add me. Wow, scary.


Oh these guys are so hardcore im scared, they are doing punky hardcore stuff like putting my address out in chat rooms and saying im doing stuff on cam XD, funny or what ;)

keep it coming guys.

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Sunday, January 23

Honkey Donk...

Im bored, but im happy.

At least i think im happy, about 2 years ago, i quit taking antidrepressants. Why? Because they were messing with my head. They would turn me into a zombie and i couldn't do, nor care about anything. Its so strange to try and explain it, and no matter how hard anyone tries, the only way to really let someone know what it is like, is if they themselfs take the same drugs, and feel the same feelings.

Now im on the opposite of the swing, problem is i care about way too much once again, this has always been my flaw, that i care, and will protect anything and anyone i belive in. No matter what the reason is i will be there fighting on their side, even if i haven't spoke to them in years.
Its stupid really, the amount of people i will put my self out for, for many reasons its stupid, but the most important one is that most of these people never know or realise, or maybe even care how far i would go for them. Another problem with this, is the fact that if your putting so much into something, you expect something back. When people dont realise this is happening, they dont give anything back.
This causes me problems, as it makes me... feel unwanted, distraught, upset, confused. So many feelings and no outlet is not a good thing.

People say "oh tell your girlfriend your feelings", but my girlfriend isn't part of this, this is my personal development, and even though i develop with my girlfriend and grow, this doesn't mean that my whole life must evolve around one point.

Try my life, and then tell me im wrong.

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Saturday, January 22

Disassembly @ the Jailhouse!

Thats right, the most crazy mentally unstructured reveloution of music to hit the place farest from the sea, Coventry, tonight is once again back for another gig.

This time Disassembly is at Coventrys Jailhouse and it shall be a good time for all, the lineup is totally confused at the moment due to one set pulling out because of illness, but no matter the night will go on!.

Enjoy and i might be there \o/

Mood: Hungover
Currently Listening to: Rumbles from my rooom....
Word of the day: Pubnked

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Friday, January 14

People taking the mind to take notice of what they say

It happens everyday, to everyone, unless of course your dead. Mothers and Child, brother and sister, people in the traffic, teachers and pupils, even maybe the lollypop lady.

Each and every day people say things, and without meaning it, hurt someones feelings. This is a problem which hit me suddenly the otherday and faced me with a dialema which nearly changed my life, and the way i looked at things forever. Scariest thing of all? It was from someone i never expected it. The normally most plascid, calm, nice, young lady i know, and in a moment, she said something, which for a few days had shattered my world.

What she said i wont repeat, for many reason, i dont have her permission, i dont remmber exactly, and there is no need for this. But this, while it was probrerly a joke, or a case of the internet malforming the meaning of sentances but still, it upset me and crushed me deep down somewhere.

Now that i look back, i talk to people who know the accused, they agree, it was all proberly a joke gone wrong. Nice thing about this is the accused will never know what pain they caused, and if my assertations are correct, this may oneday lead to the idea of a pain free world, i mean, if all the pain drains away, surely thats a GOOD thing? I like to think so!.
So now, i sit here in my bedroom, my brothers falling asleep behind me, his head resting on the corner of my bed, i have just noticed the strangest of things.

The way i type is quite relaxed, and i tend to lean back, this means my hands are nearly always in the same place on the keyboard, and i can reach the letters without even thinking about it. Strange thing is, even as i think about what im writing, i dont actually think about any of the letters, i tell my hands to type the word, and they work out the rest. Crazyness. Anyway, my hands sitting in the same place has caused a few things to happen. Least of all i get RSI, repetive strain injury. This can be a bit of a annonce but nothing more, i keep off typing for long periods of time for a few days and it goes away.
The second thing is that the dirt on this keyboard is amazing, its got its own shapes and imprints, nothing can surive the pressure of my fingers rapidly thrashing around hitting the various keys and so they shine, so brightly, yet the sides of the keys are a deep dirty grey colour. Also a few letters have warn away.

But the biggest thing i noticed, was while i was looking at how the dirt is embedded into the keyboard, that in the space bar, there is a dent. Now this is no small dent, this is quite an impact, and it looks like its been left by my thumb, which i use on its side to type spaces. As this is a totally plastic key'ed keyboard, i think this is quite kool!

No one has a keyboard quite like this one! =)

Mood: confused
Currently Listening to: ff10 music
Word of the day: finger.

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