Sunday, January 23

Honkey Donk...

Im bored, but im happy.

At least i think im happy, about 2 years ago, i quit taking antidrepressants. Why? Because they were messing with my head. They would turn me into a zombie and i couldn't do, nor care about anything. Its so strange to try and explain it, and no matter how hard anyone tries, the only way to really let someone know what it is like, is if they themselfs take the same drugs, and feel the same feelings.

Now im on the opposite of the swing, problem is i care about way too much once again, this has always been my flaw, that i care, and will protect anything and anyone i belive in. No matter what the reason is i will be there fighting on their side, even if i haven't spoke to them in years.
Its stupid really, the amount of people i will put my self out for, for many reasons its stupid, but the most important one is that most of these people never know or realise, or maybe even care how far i would go for them. Another problem with this, is the fact that if your putting so much into something, you expect something back. When people dont realise this is happening, they dont give anything back.
This causes me problems, as it makes me... feel unwanted, distraught, upset, confused. So many feelings and no outlet is not a good thing.

People say "oh tell your girlfriend your feelings", but my girlfriend isn't part of this, this is my personal development, and even though i develop with my girlfriend and grow, this doesn't mean that my whole life must evolve around one point.

Try my life, and then tell me im wrong.


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