Friday, December 29

Putting Up with Networking woes

My network (as in computer network and not social network) is a complete mess currently. This is due to alot of factors such as I was connected to NTL via my flatmates internet connection. I purchased a router and a Access Point, both linksys. At first this setup worked reasonably well, but as always (at least that i've found) i had trouble with UPnP.

While its meant to make life easier by dynamicly opening and closing ports, I've only ever found universal plug and play to be able to crash routers and kill connections. So instead I had a pretty much static setup, including static IP's and all.
So far this setup is pretty simple and anyone can understand it with a little networking knowledge and anyone with a reasonable home setup could create something like this pretty easily.

However, the addition of an xbox360 caused some problems (Although addition of any device which doesn't have its own wireless adapter would of caused the same problem).
Currently, my xbox360 connects to the internet via firstly my PC (running linux - gentoo + iptables, which shares its internet, which in turn is connecting through a firewalled (NAT'ed without UPnP) wireless network shared within my flat.

The main problem (As far as i can tell is that)
  1. The xbox360 is sitting behind two NAT'ed firewalls. This means that anyone attempting to connect to it has exteme (read impossible!) problems trying this. If the other end is also firewalled then no connections between the two hosts can be created

  2. The xbox360 is on a different subnet to the rest of the network, due to the fact its connected via my PC, so it can't be on the same subnet as the PC (at least not with the current setup.) This means I can't play via the "lan" nor stream music and video to the xbox.

I have some solutions in mind, but am not sure yet if any of them make sense or are even possible. I hope to discuss this at length with various people whom mostly have more knowledge in these areas, to see if i can create a working solution to my problem.

  1. Can I possibly get the xbox connecting via the PC and on the same subnet as the PC?

  2. Can I add an extra wireless card to the PC (already owned) and allow the xbox access to this?

  3. Can I find a 3rd party xbox wireless adapter which is suitable for the job?

Get my xbox 360 online, hopefully with a "open" status indicating that i have no problems whatsoever connecting to other users on xbox live, meaning i can host, and join matches at will.

I'll update once I've found a solution to my problem!

Saturday, December 23

Out of his face, singing to us

Its not very often you get to show up the people who are "authority" easily, so it would be a shame of me to let such as wonderful moment go unnoticed. Wouldn't it?

Gary lived with me last year and now we found a video of him on youtube, where he is appently singing some song (Warning, adult lyrics).

The funniest part? Gary works in a school. This school is especially known well in coventry as a "Good" school, although as i've had friends there, I know what really goes on and its pretty much like any other school. Drugs, fights, and all that jazz. Oh and the school is Coundon Court and they wouldn't let me in, because I lived on the wrong side of the road.

Gary, for this chance to show you up, thank you <3

Thursday, December 21

Christmas shopping finally finished!

Right so, the christmas shopping is all finished.

Except for the fact i think i only picked up 4 presents for Amy so far. Which is not GOOD! Not good at all. However tomorrow I shall be dropping by my flat to pick up my fluoxtine box and then head off to my parents house, a mile or so away.
Normally this would be an easy journey, even if i dont take it often enough (Its not like they visit me every week either...) however if you've been keeping up with the news in the Uk currently, the entire of my home town, Coventry, is currently covered in a thick scary fog.
So, a long trek awaits me as soon as i decide im ready to undertake the peril!.

For those that know me truely well, will know of my various problems, one of which is how i really dont enjoy leaving the comfort and safety of my flat. This is for reasons which i can't explain easily, but the best way is that i dont like the pubic, they are random and scary at times. This coupled with the idea that i could get my self into trouble leads me to tend to stay in my room as much as possible.

After talking with my psychologist last week, she asked me if i had ever had a time when i was trapped, and unable to escape. At the time i couldn't think of any, as my mind is generally a blur of so many thoughts, recalling anything is a task i dont undertake easily. However, a few hours or few days later (i forget time so easily.) i remember when i was younger of a time when i was trapped.

I was with my parents, and another few people, most likely my parents friends and their kids. We were at some indoor show type thing, and strangely i remember that chitty chitty bang bang was on display, and you could have a photo taken for some stupid amount of money like £15. The memories are very vague even after pondering the situation for awhile, but i know there was some sort of indoor funfair with a teacups ride, the one where the cups spin in one direction, and the whole ride turns in the opposite direction, making you feel utterly sick.
We all (about 4 of us, all kids i think) jumped on this ride, and the first time it was very much fun, so i decided i wished to ride again. I jumpped back on the ride after queuing, and for some reason no one else joined me. At first i felt find with this idea, i mean how scary can a ride be on its own? I dont know exactly what happened next, i might of banged my head, or just got scared, but by the time the ride stopped i was so scared.

The memories are still blurry but as i write, more comes back to me, i also remember there being some kind of hall of mirrors, and a sort of virtual reality machine as well. I queued up for this but at some point had some sort of panic attack and couldn't face going on it. I also remember clearly my brother going on some sort of gyroscope which span him in all sorts of directions at the same time.

Isn't it strange how the past can effect you so strongly in the future? I still have a strong dislike of fairgrounds and fairground rides, which i normally hide with stupid excuses such as my glasses might come off when im riding, or that i dont think its safe.

And now, now i just spend so much time on my xbox, how much time? Well my live eye answers that quite easily : Live eye

Fluoxetine, Fog and Fragmented Memories

  • Fluoxetine
  • A drug used for anti-depressant use.
  • Prescribed to me by my doctor
  • And now i have NONE!

  • Actually i have one!
So where does this leave me? I've been dragged to boots the chemist and hopefully they will be able to pick my prescription up for me, and then I can simply turn up tomorrow and they will have my drugs ready for my consumption.

Kudos to Amy and John for sorting that out, without them I'd be a proper mess.


Had my 3rd? appointment with my psychologist today, she explained that my depression is far worse (or at least it appears that way from some tests I took) than she first estimated, which I personally agree with. As i explained I have this knack of hiding stuff so well, that not even people talented in these areas can forsee what I'm holding back and can only work on what I give out. I wish I knew how to take down these walls far more easier but for now I just work on it.


There is not many items which truely allow my mind to explode with the kind of magic which the xbox (360) has allowed me to endure. To truely comprehend what this machine means to me is difficult to explain, especially if one is not that of the type whom likes to play games.

Sunday, December 17

More updates


More updates coming to the world of my website. is getting new updates such as now using css (as i slowly learn to implement it, along with other crazy ideas such as this and maybe some xhtml ( which is html and xml together! - scary eh? ).

Hopefully this will allow me to hone my skills some more, and maybe even some budding website evanglists who wish to find people whom demand stuff to validate ( see ) might even decide they want to take it upon them selfs to desire my skills in some form of interaction. I would LOVE to now try to design and create a site along with others, but until this point exposes its self, i guess i shall just work on my own site ^_^.

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